better days.

3 posts in a day...this is just what i'm feeling just had to put it down.

First of all,
thanks for listening to our songs,
we hope this finds you driving in your car
or wherever you are
breathe out and breathe again
know that life is hard but worth the breathing
listen to me now, for love, o love, is waiting for you just to say-

here comes better days
here comes better days
better days
a better place i know

secondly,
i'm all screwed up so royally
i stumbled my way here
but wait, o wait
grace has found me
and shaken up my soul
and grace will follow wherever you go.
so listen to me now,
grace, o grace is calling you just to say-

here comes better days.

green grass and i am laying in the sunlight of You.
the wind is moving through the trees ushering you.
and the better days You bring- better places found
feasting at your table i am overwhelmed.

i lift my glass and drink to love that never gave up
clouds pass- fading into memories gone
and all i show for life- is life and love and grace
what else could there be?

here come better days.

---if you heard the music to this song, you would feel it too.

Thank You, Jesus, for Your grace, always.

RSB.

aight, so i'm laying here on my floor...my wireless isnt' working, so i had to pull a cord into my room from downstairs...and it only reaches half way into my room. it's funny, so anyways, i'm wiping tears off of my face(i'm emotional sometimes)...just watched "Extreme Makeover: Home Edition" i love that show, there was 2 episodes back to back tonight. the first one was awesome, the second was ok. it's crazy, some of the stuff they do for needy/deserving families. it's awesome. my roommate and i were talking about how it's like what the church needs to look like. i remember a couple of special days down in Florida. i can't remember what we called those days, but i remember waking up early, on a few Saturday mornings. and goin to family's houses with a huge group of people from our church, and just start cleaning, painting, etc. it was some awesome experiences. i remember the people's faces of thankfulness. i don't know, it's just awesome. i hope i always have openness to go out of the way for people. help people. give to people. i have been so blessed in my life. i, so, want to give back.

anywho, i hate being sick. i don't get sick alot. but i hate it when i do. i can't breathe out of my nose. Hallelujah, anyways. i'll live.

Music to check out:
*Robbie Seay Band-Better Days. good stuff. the first song is my favorite. i have it playing over and over. www.robbieseayband.com

stops.

so yesterday was such a crazy day. this weekend i was asked to do worship at a retreat type deal. so friday night i drove down, about an hour south, hung out, played music, it was ok. i was totally dead, didn't feel good. i didn't want to bail out at the camp, but i just wanted my own bed. so i drove home friday night, only to get about 2-3 hours of sleep. i just couldn't sleep. so saturday morning, i picked up Nick...and started driving. and let me just say i was driving pretty fast...all the way there, but in the great county of Mower, a police wanted to stop me, so he did. he popped a U and came and came to say hi. ha. needless to say, he wanted to give me a ticket too. pretty sure i was goin 75 in a 55. ooops! but he told me since i was honest with him, he would not fine me for goin 20 over, only 9 over. so i have to pay Mower about $170. can i just say, "Hallelujah," can i get an "Amen?" ok, so you think, ok that sucks, but that's not all...haha. so i continued on my way to Good Earth Village(the camp the retreat was at) did the music...still sick. then i left, cause Nick needed to get home to get ready for a high school dance. ha, anyways, so tried to take a nap, couldn't sleep again. picked up Andy and Mr. Matt Call...got back to the camp...didn't get a ticket, goin there, this time. anyways, did the music, it was cool. a little different, but cool. driving back we just got into Rochester, i stopped at a stop light, and then decided to accelerate a little faster than i normally would, and to my luck, there was a cop in the other lane and saw me take off, but i didn't speed at all...so oh yes, that cop wanted to say hi to me too. so pretty sure i got pulled over AGAIN, the same day. haha, this time, she asked why i took off like that, i told her it was kind of a habit, ha, then she told me one of my lights are out. no ticket this time, who can say that they got pulled over twice in a day. ha!! not many, i'm the coolest person in the world! anyways, i'm still not feeling good. so i didn't go back to that camp this morning. and i didnt' go to church. it's weird not goin to church on a sunday morning. anyways, i gotta get goin on my day, i want to just go to a coffee shop and sit, study, and chill a little.

ok, so 5 more days till i see a very important person in my life, and i CAN'T wait!!!!!!!!!!! it's too far away, but 5 days will go by fast...DORK!

faces.

i'm sitting in my bed, well laying in my bed. with my computer in front of me. watchin my phone blink, telling me i have a message. i'm just so unmotivated today to do anything. gotta get up, get ready, go to church, and do tonight. i cleaned my room last night. and i saw tons of pictures that were hiding under my bed. cause i have no where else to put them right now...anyways...i put the pics in 3 different groups.

WI...where i saw faces of Brandi, Justin, Jenna, Danielle, Brock, Sarah B., Elliot, Hannah, Josh, Nolan(cutting the potatoes for my dad-hayride times-nolan and josh, had some SWEEEET orange glasses on...HOT) haha (all i can say, is ATV-ing-there has to come another time of that goodness) and i saw some more people from school like Graham, Jimmy, Joana, from our skating days...crazy days.. it's crazy to think, how young i was there. i mean i'm still younger, but i was really young there. i thought i knew everything back then. hmm...although i did feel like i was older back then too...now i feel like i'm younger, but i'm actually older. wow, that was kinda of confusing.

anyways, then i went through and saw tons of pics of WA...beautiful Seattle skyline pics. beautiful mountain pics...good old CT...beautiful people...the la-la sisterhood-erica, nicole, black katie, kayla, tara(remember the night with the cigs.??-i found that pic) haha. some more faces like brandon p., the babcock girls. alejandra. rev. mike and shawn, the ericksons(best people in the world) mark pogue, SOULDEEP( www.souldeep.com) Shout out! - jason the j-dog(j-train), MARIA BUCKINGHAM(BEST-EST FRIEND in the WORLD, even though we dont' talk as much, you always have a spot in my wedding!!(if that day EVER comes-ha!) David Dodd. H20 students(at the time). ah too many faces and names to list, i miss them all SOOOO much. hm...so many good memories in WA...my heart is still so much there! wishing and hoping i will be back there one day.

and then the pile of pics from FL. FL, Impact students(the youth name might be different, but i will always remember Impact) my sunday morning band. Dave the man, Coleman, Dave my favorite drummer. Vi and Clark(i loved where i lived) Gordon and Carol...so grateful i am to them, they were so helpful in so many ways. Peruske's - Casey(my first official real -good- date). Fryes-I miss you guys! the Whites, and there new beautiful twin girls.(gotten updates)...i found a picture of me and jason outside of Gordon's apartment, when jason and chuck came to visit from WA...good times!! no regrets!! Daytona Beach, riding up with trevor...singin "complicated" for the opening song of the camp...Tenth Avenue North(me being jealous that they got to do a camp with Shane and Shane the next week) -playing bottle hockey in the hall of the hotel with some of the girls, getting the crap beaten out of our feet. the sand being like flour, me driving on the beach, with "the next episode"-Snoop cranked in my truck and windows down. haha good times. THE OCEAN! I miss the OCEAN, just sitting chillin, watchin the small waves roll in and roll out. i miss the atmosphere down there...i miss the hotness...and i'm not just saying that because i'm in cold mn right now...i'm sayin that cause i loved it down there. key west was so freakin' fun with Maria...i will always remember the night when we went to that really fancy italian joint down there, and laughed until we cryed...that night was so fun to me. and then when i visited one of my favorite people over in the great city of Ft. Myers...that night we just chillin...i kicked your butt!! dont' deny it, i WON...even though i had battle marks left...i still can't believe you made a mark-NOLAN!! always remember that. a day will come, when i will do so much damage to you, you'll cry. haha! anyways, so many memories...

and now Rochester, MN...i can't comment on this time, cause i'm still here, but i have had some good times here...lots of them...but this book is still open...so i'll continue reading it...

enjoi.

prevail.

i'm sitting here watching "Cellular" and boy, what a joy it is. ah, gotta run and put some laundry in the washer....ok, i will in a second i guess. i was so pissed tonight, but i talked to andre and he told me to stop taking myself so seriously. i think i'll try. i do take myself really serious, with tons of different stuff. i dont' want to anymore. it's not that deep, right? anyways, i laughed so hard tonight. we decided to do some sledding in our backyard, AND front yard!! haha. kelly, me, bandon, and lindsay. it was so funny. i was decked out. i broke out my cowboy hat tonight. it was HOT-and really cold all at the same time!! then i frickin' got tackled by bandon, probably cause i went after him, kelly bailed out on me...we were goin to get him together. whatever, it's all good. i will prevail. i always win, whatever it is...i always win. so bring it. hehehe. so yea going to put my clothes in the washer, then probably make a call, then go to bed. so there ya have it. sorry i haven't posted pics, haven't really been up to it lately. my camera has been on the floor in my bedroom for the last like 2 weeks, but it's all good. enjoi.

frustrated.

ah, today was weird. today was a fine day, but i just got frustrated with my own thoughts about the future. i hate when i only see what my own eyes see. what's in front of me. there is so much more that's going on, and today i just couldn't see anything else, except, my life today. which isn't too bad, but, AH, sometimes i want to see what God see's, what His plans are, His perfect will. today i didn't even look for it. it's something to get excited about, but i just wasn't excited today. sometimes i hate my eyes. today was blah, that's a good word to use. although i did have a good study time. i went to Caribou-yes yes one of the enemies, but still ok.

i read this statement and it was just cool...i'm reading a book called worship-a way of life by Patrick Kavanangh. it's so good. anyways, good ole Pat was writing about worship in the New testament...he brought up "heavenly worship" bringing up Luke 2:13-14-when the angels met the shepherds in the field, the angels were worshiping...and then at the end of the NT, Rev. 4:1-11; 5:6-14; Rev. 7:9-12; 11:15-19; the list goes on...anyways then he goes..."i believe the lesson is this: If worship is a characteristic of heaven, then when we truly worship God on earth it is as though we were in heaven-a part of heaven has become real to us." i don't know, i've heard things like this before, i just thought it was put kind of cool. ok so that's my thoughts right now, kind of all over today and tonight.

2 weeks is too far away. ahhhhhh....soon enough, right?

american idol.

wow, what people will do to get on tv. that's all i can say. America can be so stupid sometimes. but i love america. hm...so anyways, today was ok. i had some things planned, and they just didn't happen, i hate when that happens. i wanted to study like for a few hours...yea, pretty sure that didn't happen. i want to start a worship "series" in smallgroup. but, i dont' know, i think i'm the only one that really wants to learn about it...who knows, it's kind of frustrating to me sometimes. so andy and i talked about a few things i could do differently...start new and fresh, i guess. it's time to get serious about stuff...in our smallgroup...DECIBEL! (ha-i came up with that name...too bad, noboby likes it) ahhhhh, it's time for change. i'm getting content, but not really. i'm confusing. i hate being content, i always want something more. another thing, is that i have made myself into someone here in Roch, i think, it's hard for people to take me seriously...unless i'm crabby or in a bad mood, then they will...i love having fun, goofing around, but i love talking about God and stuff like that, but people just don't feel it most of the time, so it seems. do i need to change somehow? what do i need to do differently? hmmmm...crazy thoughts right now.

anyways, other things on my front...hm, goin out on a ledge now and saying, i'm SOOOO excited about my relationship with a certain boy. G-man, i mean!! hehe. i'm katie cass, for those of you who know me well-knows that katie cass would never have a boyfriend! and i thought i would never be apart of any sort of thing like this, but i am now and i'm SOOOOO happy, and to be honest-never felt this sort of happiness!!! so many good things.

RANDOM Thoughts....
-it's been so cold here lately...ah, i hate it. pretty much cause i hate wearing jackets/coats. but the ironic thing is, that i love jackets/coats...i have so many!!!
-i can't go to bed right now, because i'm washing my bedding right now...kind of need that.(one of those people who can't sleep without a blanket covering me...)
-in my lifetime, i WILL own a 100 ft. yacht. (and not allow kids on it...)
-i counted how many jeans i own - 25 pairs of jeans (3 or 4 of which have holes in them, so i can't wear...)- i only wear, oh yes...4 pairs!!! hmmm...
-i'm going to try and sell my text books i got, during my ONE semester of college. i'm pathetic.
-I HATE FOOTBALL!
- ok that's enough of my random thoughts -

hey, you wanna check out the youth ministry my bro pastors and my crew and i are apart of...check it out... www.tg8.org there will be videos and audio on it...but not right away. keep on checkin' in...

hey, if you like new music and are open to different kinds of music. you need to check out Mat Kearney...Bullet. it's frickin' hot! it's just different, so if you're a person who only likes one sort of music or one person, or band-probably don't check it out, but if you are someone who is open...check him out!!!

don't do anything i wouldn't do.

random.

i have to say, that my life is so random these days. random in a good way. everyday recently, there has been something random that has happened. no reason-random and also very important random. anyways, random is good. Hallelujah. i've been taking so many pics these days, cause i want to remember these days. life is good. i'm SOOOOO happy. right now, at this moment, i'm watching fear factor. some of this stuff is frickin' insane. this has to be the worst episode i've seen....ick.
anyways, so last night (Weds.) church was canceled, but oh no, we didn't cancel youth group. we just did a worship night. God showed up. it was frickin' awesome, and at the end of the night, people didn't want to leave, we just went insane and danced. danced like white people should. like david. it was just refreshing. although i was on stage all night, i didn't get into as much, but seeing students and leaders come together and just worship, it was awesome. God is so good. i couldn't stop thinkin how much God has done in my life. Blessed me, helped me through different times-i thought i would never get out it, He's taken me places that i thought i would never go-taught me so much in those times. there are things that i wish i could do differently, but learned and moved on. and now, when i wasn't looking for anyone, he put someone in my life...random, yes, very, but very very good. i love life right now. God is faithful to me, always has been. So good. sorry this was pretty vague. but whatever. enjoi.

tonight, worship. awesome.  

ah...andy and christy. love birds.  

navy blue boys.  

HOT!  

Darrell's loss of hair. so much cooler than andy's loss.  

again ladder-astics! Next Xtreme Sport... 

ladder-astics, the new sport of THE GATE STUDENT MINISTRIES.  

the g8. logo. new beginnings... 

the gate student ministry. 1.11.04. still needs some work... 

line of cars, i don't know why i took this pic, but it was good times.  

oh andy, that's HOT!!!!  

Packers LOST!!! haha, andy's loss of hair.  

marshall and taylor wrestling, nice butts guys.  

nick and kelly kallies. nick is a playa.  

lindsay and kelly. cute...i hate football (in the back ground) 

the boys.  

pup is lickin mar mar's phone. getting it all clean. 

jordan and me. he's a happy fella.  

nick and me. so cute! mr. and mrs.  

engholms and me. awe precious. 

lindsay...MW! (mid-west) YEAH! 

nick kallies, the ninja. or something... 

angela, little trooper. 

comforting marshall in time of his need.  

etc.

this time of the year...I LOVE CORN!

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