this is the church i grew up in...SOOO many memories! nolan-remember when 'we'(YOU!!-haha) smoked out the fellowship hall??? ha, good times, good times!! this is a bad picture of it...too many trees.  

BELTS!!! if you know the SP, you know what that place is!  

when we were kids, my dad had this whole playground thing for us...it was actually pretty sweet, but this is the only thing left standing these days..... 

this is upstairs in the barn...just something my brother made. props to SNAKEboarding, not many people know what that is... 

my home...the first 18 years of my life spent here. 

the barn...so many memories in that place. (we have a 6 foot halfpipe for skating in the upstairs of that) parties, skating... 

i just thought this rock formation was kind of cool. driving home 3-20.  

family.

ok so, my mom's b-day was yesterday. i surprised her by coming home. and then i had people come over to celebrate her b-day. the pictures below are just some of the people/kids that came over. my bro was there, dad, mom(of course), sharon and rich, hannah, elliot, nathan, sarah, cindy, peter, cassie, jacob, ayd'n, and cassie's b-f. it was good to see everyone again, and just chill. we ate, talked, family time-good. enjoi.

my dad just chillin' with the boys. Devil Dog Deegs. and Toby. 3-20. 

Happy B-day Mom. my mom and her present from Aunt Cindy. (and toby-my mom's 4th child) 3-20. 

Ryan-my bro. seriously he always has the sweetest poses!!  

Cassie's boy-Ayd'n(spellin?) SOOO CUTE!!!!  

me and Hannah. 3-20.  

Sharon and my mom-the cousin twins. and elliot and nathan. 3-20. 

the Sankey kids. Hannah, Elliot(middle) and Nathan. such cuties!!!  

patriot.

so i'm sitting here at my home, in Stevens Point, WI. it's my mom's b-day and i surprised her by coming home, she had no clue. it was kind of cool. anyways...i love coming home sometimes, cause we had extented cable. i've been flipping through and stopped on "the Patriot" and andre says, "amen." it's pretty cool i guess. so i'm just goin to chill here for the night and leave in the morning. i'll probably end up posting some random pics around here, because there really isn't much to do here in this good old town!! that's all for now...

snow...about a foot or more there, but it didn't stop...ICK! 

out on the deck. snow snow snow. i hate it! 

poor pedro.  

driving to work. 3-18-05 

driving to work. barely can see. HALLELUJAH! 

bored at work. 3-18-05 

snow.ick.

ok so it's March 18. i can't even stand to look out the window right now...there is about a foot of new snow on the ground and it's not stopping anytime soon. i gotta talk to God about what He is doin to us up here in the north. so i don't have to work 8 hours today...like how i was scheduled, kind of nice. a girl i work with, wasn't scheduled at all this week...so i offered some of my hours to her...like a good friend would. hehe. so today and tomorrow night i have off after 6. it'll be so nice. but if the weather keeps up like this, we'll ALL probably get off at 6. my managers cool like that, he'll just have us shut down if we're not getting busy.

anywho. today is ok so far...i woke up at 10, made myself a vanilla latte. and read about David and Goliath(sp?) and David and Jonathan. it was cool. and now i'm motivated to go shovel....scrap my car. but even if i do now, i'll have to do it again before i leave for work. BLAH! peace.

less of me.

use me, break me, waste me on You,
Lord ruin me, take me, waste me on You

for to die is to live...
to starve is to feast
and less of me is more of Jesus

Lord, i want it all
Lord, i want it all
if i lose my life i gain everything
and at the cross away with all death's sting
Lord, i want it all
Lord, i want it all

there is power in the blood
there is victory in Jesus
come in power, wash me clean
overwhelm me with Your presence
there is power in the blood
there is victory in Jesus
help me glory in the cross
help me find my gain in loss


-my prayer today.

rockford.

i woke up early today. weird. but kind of nice. anyways, so goin to rockford was cool. seeing my boyfriend was pretty cool. meeting people was cool. it would have been cooler if i could've went to see the RYI yesterday. it went awesome, so i hear. but one day, i guess. anyways. i thought i would have tons more about rockford, but i'm not in the mood to type it all out. so it was awesome! i'll keep it at that. enjoi the pointless pics. except the top one, that's andre, but the picture sucks! anyways, peace.

the ONE pic i got of my boyfriend. and it sucks. blur and crap. but it was awesome to see him again though. 

by myself, just driving my life away. taking random pics. enjoi. 

me trying to be artistic. didn't think i would catch this mile marker driving around 75 mph. but i did. let's here it for me! 17 is my lucky #, hence the picture.

me being bored, driving home. 

driving home from RF. the weather sucked, but i'm not complaining.  

leaving.

Pedro and I are off to Rockford, IL!! woo hoo. peace out.

so it's 3 am right now. and i'm not tired at all. my alarm is about to go off at 5:30AM. i am goin to rockford today. seeing Andre. cant wait to see him. it's a long drive for not really a long time to hang out with him, but i gotta see him, every chance i get. anyways, so today(which really was yesterday now-mar. 8) was aight. i worked 2 - close(9) but before work i went to lunch with Jordan, it's cool to be on the same page(in ministry) with him. we lead worship together every week. but now after our discussion, he is goin to lead more, then eventually start another band, branch off with younger students. he'll still be apart of the same group though, as right now. jordan was very encouraging to me. saying, that i "raised the bar" when it came to worship in youth. i don't know, from him, it was cool to hear. someone that plays every week with me, someone who knew what worship used to be and is apart of what it is now. seeing the bar being raised. i dont' know what the future holds for me right now, but if and when i do leave Rochester, i don't want to just leave without bringing people up to do what i do right now. a huge part of ministry, i believe, is training/equiping people up, constantly. and i haven't done that. so speakin with jordan, we're goin to start equiping others, younger people, junior high peeps. so it'll be awesome and frustrating i'm sure, but very beneficial. we're also going to go deeper (spiritually) with our band right now. it's crazy to think that i've been here in Roch. for about 1 1/2 years and the band right now, me, jordan, nick, matt, and kurtis aren't closer than what we are. i mean we're close, but we could be way more. anyways, those are my boys and i want them to feel comfortable enough to share with me or jordan what their goin through at any time. anyways, sorry i'm rambling now, but still not getting tired. crazy!! this can't be too good, all i can say is that i'm goin to be non-stop drinkin coffee tomorrow.

then, after work, i went to andy's and he purchased the sweetest game EVER!!! it's XBOX Karoake!!! i sang a Michelle Branche song, and lets just say that i rocked everyone's socks off!!! later i found out that i have the highest score. BRING IT!!!

K it is now 3:30, i gotta turn off Friends, turn off the computer and TRY to sleep. ah, sleep, it's so nice. i should not have drank that coffee after 9. CRAP, what was i thinkin??? ok peace out.

realize.

'you can't have it both ways, banqueting with the Master one day and slumbering with demons the next. Besides, the Master won't put up with it. He wants US---all or nothing. Do you think you can get off with anything less?? Looking at it one way, you could say, "anything goes, because of God's immense generosity and grace, we don't have to dissect and scrutinize every action to see if it will pass muster." But the point is not to just get by. We want to live well, but our foremost efforts should be to help OTHERS live well.- 1 Cor. 10 something to something. The Message.

i read that today from the Message(not my fave translation, but didn't have my other Bible) anyways, i work in youth ministry right now, and so many of the students i'm closest with are struggling with junk right now. it sucks. struggling with juggling both things...world and God. we just went to the retreat, and honestly i didnt' do all that i could to reach out the students that weekend. i would rather reach out right now...when they get back into real life. day to day. 2 of my closest boys are now working at Dunn Bros with me, so i look at that as not just fun and crazy times, but a time when i can really pour into their lives...and not to mention, we lead worship together every week. it just sucks, i wish they could realize what i realize, sometimes, and not saying at all that i have all the answers, i totally don't...but. if you put your trust in God, he will blow your mind. sure it'll be hard and there will be struggles, but God's there and he can help you through. but i guess in time.

i have been thinking about my life lately and the places i've been and people i've met in the past 4 or 5 years. it's crazy to think i've been here in Roch for over a year. anyways, i have kind of made a summary of my life in WA, FL and now in MN. in WA, it was surrender, i told God that i wanted to surrender everything to Him and i did...but through it i had to deal with alot of past pains and situations...FL was loneliness. i was pretty lonely. although i had good times there. it was lonely most of the time. just kept on trusting and waiting on God. the funny thing is, is that in FL, i didn't live my life all down and depressed cause i was lonely, i rarely thought i was lonely...i didnt' want to get in that rut. but lookin back now, i really do think i was lonely. anyways, just hung out with God. try to do the best i could on my own...didn't do that well. and here in Roch, MN...foundation....in God. i really feel like in this time in MN, i have come to know, that i know, that i know, God is my foundation, when things happen, good or bad, they are not goin to determine my status with God. you know? i know it's probably confusing, just venting....where in the past situations kind of affected the way i looked at God---i didn't like being in that place with my relationship with Him....so anyways here i sit this morning, just being SOOOOO thankful, God has been faithful in my life, even when i wasn't. and blessing me beyond anything i ever believed. anyways, so that my story...there's alot of "to be continued" to go around....

and to Andre. incredible, you are. i thank God everyday we were put together so randomly. i love you.

www.xanga.com/ktjac there's my other site, if you wanna check it out, but this is where my heart is...

burgundy.

i have to quote my friend and yours...Mr. Ron Burgundy when he said, "i immediately regret this decision..."

i like to think of myself as a highly motivated person. so i worked 7am to 2pm...good ole D.Bros. anyways, when i work that shift, i go home and take a quick nap. so i woke up from the 30 min. nap, put on my kicks and walked out my door, on my way to take a jog. i got on the road and just started running, no stretching, no walking, just running...not the best idea, i'll admit. i haven't really ran since my days in FL-then i ran about a mile and 1/2 every night or every other night. needless to day, my chest felt like someone was sitting on it. ok well not really interesting today...but just thoughts, i guess. love y'all.