Dan's greasy hair. ick. tonight(2-20) 

security.

seriously i need help. it's come to the point where i just don't know what do to and i think i need the answers soon. i really want to do one thing, but then i really feel like i should to do another...because of "security" does God open multiple doors and let us walk through whatever door we want and he still blesses us and leads us? or is there one door he wants us to walk through?? i think i know the answer, but i'm VERY impatient and i want to know what to do. the one thing i want to do, people will think i'm crazy for doin it, but i know it'll be ok. let'em think what they want-my thoughts. but then the other thing i feel like i should do, is because of "worldy security" aka, money, benefits, commitment(that i don't know if i want to make)-not to mention, that it is still all up in the air...not set in stone so who really knows how much "security" it will actually give me...if any. if you're readin this your head is probably spinning, mine is too...gotta go to sleep.

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hmmm...what to post, what to post? i dont' know. today was normal and now i sit here, watching Friends:season 6. i love Friends. i would love to live in New York City, not for a crazy long time, but for a while. i love big cities. Seattle was great. but i really like the idea of NYC. dreams...

ah, i seriously don't know what i'm thinking right now. so many things. i think i just need to go to sleep, wake up earlier tomorrow and get some things done. get'er done.

valentine's day.

so today started off like any other day. woke up, got ready, went on the internet for a bit, then headed to work...of course i wanted to wish my "special someone" happy valentine's day, so i called him on the way to work. walked into dunn bro's and my managers and the owners were having a meeting, they stopped talking and started smiling at me and telling me to go into the kitchen. so i went and as i walked in there were 12 beautiful roses and a box of chocolates sittin on the counter. i was taken back, cause i didn't think they were for me, and i didnt' want just to assume they were for fear of disappointment. anyways, yes, yes, they were for me. i almost started crying. but i couldn't get the huge smile off of my face. nothing has ever happened to me like that. it was amazing. i'm katie cass. things like this don't normally happen to me. but I HAVE THE BEST BOYFRIEND IN THE WORLD. so now they do. he makes me happy, he makes me smile, he sends me a dozen roses on valentine's day- who would have thought? i'm so blessed to have you, andre, in my life. i love you. (what?-hehe)

everyone's story is different. someone people fall in love the moment they lay eyes on each other...for some they build a relationship for years before they say the words. you know your story. and to some extent, who cares what others think??!! for me it's not like anything i have ever felt before. i feel like shouting it from a mountain, but i don't have a mountain, i have a blogspot site. i took a chance.

one word: beautiful. 

stupid.

so anyways, sometimes i can be stupid. just stupid. tonight, i was acting like, or trying to act like napoleon dynamite. one of my favorite parts in the movie is when napoleon went out in the kitchen to get a drink, and LaFawnduh, was asking him what he was doing, cause he was all sweaty. anyways, he takes a drink, real fast. and i don't know why, but i think that part is freakin' hilarious. so me being stupid, try to imitate that. but i had just open a bottle of pepsi, so all the foam stuff was kind of coming out...i do it, and the pepsi, shot up my nose like a rocket!! and me being an over dramatized person, fell to the ground. and laughed, till i cried. kelly and lindsay were my witnesses. and if i recall...they fell on the ground too. anyways...i tell that story to encourage you to be...

"be imitators of God..." (Eph. 5:1) not of napoleon dynamite. can i get an amen??

on to other things...worship night, it was pretty sweet. in fact, we recorded it and so i'm watching it back right now. we had a ok turn out...about 15-20 people, but those people wanted to be there and worshiped. so it was cool, a different band tonight, so had to adjust a little, i have gotten so used to my guys. it's cool though. i'm excited for the winter retreat. it'll be good. i have to say, i'm different. my sound/voice is different...sorry, just commenting on this playback. ok well, people are goin to friday's so i'm goin to shoot over there, and hang out a little, although i should just sleep...i'm sleepy. ok well enjoi. don't do anything i wouldn't do.

my 2 favorite boys together. it's so weird seeing y'all together. who would have thought???  

funk.

so i'm sitting in my bros' office at church and i'm in a funk. i'm in a frustrated, "sick-of-it-all" mood. i don't necessarily like this feeling, but i'm in it right now. i hate when people don't just come to me and tell me what they are thinking...if they are mad-come and tell me, if they are confused-come and tell me...don't tell someone behind my back that i'm not good at being a worship leader! cause i know i am a good worship leader. sure there are things that i can improve...but don't blame things on me, when it's really your fault. that's so dumb. ah the little things...sometimes they are huge, especially if it's something i truly care about. sometimes people just don't get it. sometimes i just don't get it. whatever. music time. put on a smile katie.

now.

my throat hurts. i only hurts at night, when i stop using my voice, it seems. anyways. i'm sleepy. i think i'm goin to call it a night. my boyfriend is out dancing his life away tonight, so i probably won't talk to him. but i'll live, i think. tomorrow is goin to be a good day. i have a meeting at 1 for a job position. i have so many questions. i have so many thoughts. i just wish i could see the next year ahead of me to really know what to do. hmmm....but i think i'll take this job and if something happens in the next year or 2 then, than that something will happen and no job can stop that. ok well future shuture. now is what it's about. but i can't stop dreaming.

jordan and me. 

jordan and me.  

bandon, k-dog, donald the dancer. superbowl party.  

4 square(is that the name)? superbowl party. 

superbowl par-tay. i hate football. 

then there's one.

so pretty sure, andre just lefted to go back to PA. stopping in Chicago, then Toledo, then home, then Orlando. and pretty sure, it was really really hard. i can honestly say, that i have never felt this way before. i have never cried this way before. cry because i didn't want him to leave, but knowing we will be together again, just don't know when right now. so much on both our plates, just have to stick wit it. i guess. just have to wait. it will work out.

so life now is...roch.job.home.church.friends.distance.pictures.emails.aim.

final words: Milk was a bad choice.

enjoi the pics peeps.

friday night. andre and i. (photo taken by: kelair) 

a2. 

andre and i.  

me and andre, saturday, just chillin.  

andre (i think he looks like chris rock-in this one). i think this is friday night.