fret.

so i've been thinking...

this last week i heard a comment from someone, and you know how things just hit ya sometimes, even though you've heard about 100 times before...well i heard this comment, " if i could go back, i wouldn't fret as much about all the little things."

what have i done in the last 3 or so years....i have freakin' fret about every little thing. everything little plan that didn't turn out my way, every little area that wasn't cleaned to my standard(more so in the last year) :) , everything little note i played wrong or sang off tune. every little skip in a cd, every little person that annoyed me, every little thing i wanted but didn't get right at that moment, every little thing. how pathetic is that? why?

i live in rochester, mn. home of mayo clinic. i work at a flower shop. every day, i hear a story of someone in icu, barely hanging onto the last thread. i send out about 10-30 "get well soon" cards a day... i dont' care how sick they are, they are sick and here i am complaining about how mike can't put the blanket on my bed the right way. and i'm truely bothered by it. what???? what is that????

things haven't been the smoothest lately with certain people in our lives (mike and I's-more so Mike's) and we're trying to plan a wedding, kind of a big thing, and here we are crying over spilled milk.

burning bridges, not cool.

i know the change starts in me. so here's to change...well hopefully..

kt b in 18 days.