half-a.

no half-"a"ing. ha. no more.

Last night had an incredible time of expressing my feelings towards God. total awe.

my heart is getting back in focus. my mind. my life.

FOCUS. good.

i'm tired though, right now and people are watching football.

I HATE FOOTBALL. i said it.

random, yes. peace.

extreme.

2 extreme stories-

Bad story:
Last night, Marshall and I decided to go for a ride in his drop top. We picked up Kelly at the church. Jordan and Chelcy were there just chillin for a bit. This is like 10:45 or so. We take a spin around the area in the car, we got back into the church parking lot. We noticed a car pull into the parking lot, not knowing who it was. They drove around the parking lot(it's pretty big) we kind-of followed them but then we turned around, they followed us. we circled around and they pulled up about 5 or 6 feet to the left of the driver (Mar-Mar) they waved over to Marshall to get out and come to the their car, none of us moved. so the front passenger got out, pulled a gun and told us to give him our money. fortunately, none of us had any...so after about a minute or so of that...the gunman, started laughing and told us it was a joke. hahaha, yea, NOT funny. so i told them, "the cops will think it's pretty funny too...we'll let them know about it"...so i gave chelcy my phone and she called 911. the cops came, we described them the 3 guys in the car. told him the license plate number...they found the car at the house it was registered to. and so they got the guys. so the cop that stayed with us, told us that they needed 2 of us to come and identify the suspects...so me and chelcy got in the cop car...and they drove us over to the house...the 2 of the guys were sitting on the front steps..the cops shined lights in the faces so they couldn't see who was in the car...the 3rd guy wasn't there, so i don't know the deal with him. but anyways, so the cop gave us the decision whether it was goin to be a felony or just a misdeanor(sp?) so we all kind of decided to have them arrested...i mean, come on...what the kind of joke is it when someone is pointing a handgun to your head (it was touching Marshall's head) and everyone knows, that if we did have money, they would have taken it. anyways, we got 2 guys arrested forsure, i don't know about the 3rd guy...so anyways, it's all good. oh by the way...the gun was a BB gun. but it looked real. anyways, so that was pretty hardcore last night. the funny thing is that at church yesterday the pastor spoke about where your going after you die...i didn't care if i got shot, i'm goin to HEAVEN!! hallelujah...haha! anyways...now on to the good story...


good story:
my great friend, whom i love...Black KT. called me, haven't talk to her for a long time, she is in Birmingham, AL, right now, 1st year at masters there...anyways, she called me yesterday saying that Shane Barnard is doin a concert there and their about to have dinner with shane and shane. i freaked out...if people know me even a little bit they will know i've been a shane fan for a bout 7 or 8 years before everyone started to like him...i'm crazy about him. i've been to like 10 concerts (some by myself) i've taken 2 pics with him. done multiple songs by him. anyway, Black Kt asked me if i wanted to have her tell him anything for me...i was like, "sure you can tell him that it's sersiously one of my biggest dreams, is to sing one song with him...not even in front of a crowd, just chilling or something. " so anyways, the masters had dinner with him and his band and junk...she calls me back and was like...."KT, I gave him your phone number!!!!" i was like WHAT??? and they made jokes about ditchin' Shane Everett, and becoming Shane and Katie.....SHADY!! so anyways, last night Shane Barnard had my name, phone number and other info about me, on a piece of paper in his pocket!!!! IT"S MY TIME!!! i don't even care if he ever calls me, just the fact that he has even a little bit of info on me...after all these years...haha!! i seriously was going crazy...anyways, so i would seriously flip if he ever called me...and Black KT told him i will be at his Nov. 15 concert with David and Robbie...and she told him to give me a "shout out " at that show....haha...anyways. so there is my extreme day yesterday...CRAZINESS!!

next.

hey i'm not dead. it's been a while. all is well. haven't had internet access, which isn't all that bad. i have a lot to do in the next 2 weeks.

so that's all i have right now. gotta jet.

piece.

dream.

i had a dream of you last night. not one i expected or asked for. i saw you doing fine, without me. i was terrified. i haven't seen your face for a while. i thought i would be fine too. but then there are nights like last. and i get all messed up again. what am i doing? what are you doing? will we see each other again? even for a while, even for one moment. i guess that's the purpose of dreams.


not what you think....

this is what i got to see last night... 

and this...