outer space.

life...wake up in the morning, go to work for 8 hours, come home, eat, go to bed, just to start it all over tomorrow...life.

that's the life i long for, when i'm busy and crazy, but when i'm not busy and crazy, that's the life i dread. so where's the in between?

Is it possible to do something you love with out getting burnt out or discontent in a few years??

Is it possible to be content?
As "christians" are we suppose to be content or not content? i get confused.

Is there always going to be uncertainty?

is there always going to be defeat?

Is there always going to be a fog in my mind?

When is it all going to unfold?

Is the ache ever going to go away?

will i ever let God in completely?

will i ever give over control to Him?

will i ever lose control?

is this really the life i am meant to live?

am i suppose to be doing something bigger?

how can i do something bigger?

will i ever get to where i would love to be?


Answers?



--i'm just sitting here, thinking. questioning things. pondering. those questions are in no particular order. just came out.
it's a friday night. i'm wanting to be in Seattle right now just chilling, but i'm here in rochester and i'm going to wake up tomorrow and still be in rochester. why can't i be content??? is it always going to be impossible for me?? who knows...

so i leave you with this quote from Michael Scott -
"I am an adult. I don’t have to think…or…do anything"

laughter.

so tonight Mike surprised me with a date night. chinese, always good choice. Horton Hears a Who, cute movie. and lots of laughs...till i cried :) ha. it's always a good feeling to laugh. to smile. to feel free to let loose. we both were dancing to "Low, Low, Low" in the car (only a couple of people have seen me do my dance to that song...ha.) ...people along side us must thought we were weirdos...pretty much correct. Anyways, it started making me think...what makes me smile...

*surprise date nights
*music (esp. rap/hip hop...hehe)
*Mimi & Stella
*Baxter
*Spring...with no snow...
*Walks outside
*Driving with all the windows down.
*Sunsets (preferably FL sunsets-the best)
*Strawberries
*New ideas
*Photos
*Seattle
*Real-ness
*Words spoken incorrectly...ha.
*Popcorn
*Piano
*Singing
*Light at the end of the Tunnel
*Bush's Stimulus Package
*Crossword Puzzles
*David Archuleta & Brooke White
*Naps

And lots of other things...everyday, i hope i can focus on the things that make me smile, instead of the things that don't. That's my goal. Where my pet peeves and annoyances...turn into something to smile about...ha.

thats my thoughts right now...

new addition....

so we know it isn't the most practical...but we couldn't resist...

say "hello" to STELLA!!! our new puppy!! Doxie/Terrier.

church

So for a long time now...it seems like it's been forever since we've done music or even gone to church, but really it's only been like 5 or 6 months, but doing music for about 10 years or so...it's a big gap...long over due break, I'm getting new thoughts and new ideas through these months. why oh why do we play music? why music in church? silly music. anywho. we got to play at a church today bout 45 mins away. We really felt at home. Great time and great conversations. Great people. The Pastor & his wife are amazing people, we had a great lunch with them. Just felt so comfortable and felt like we belong there for the time being. It's what we have been on-again/off-again looking for a long time. I can't wait to go back...since it is 45 mins away, we'll be going about every other week. We're very excited to start this new journey. I'm so happy to see excitement back in Mike's eyes and words spoken, new dreams, etc.

Ok well that's some new stuff for you, all the faithful readers.

***Side Note...All the songs on the show "Oprah's Big Give" are AMAZING!
*Need to Breathe-"Shine On"
*Five For Fighting-"World"
*Suzie McNeil- "Believe"

In fact...after listening to more songs... I will go out on a limb in saying... NeedToBreathe is my new fav. (and it just happens to be a "christian" band...and i dont 'normally like those bands...) the singer dude seriously sounds like John mayer on a few diddys.
Good stuff!!