frustrated.

ah, today was weird. today was a fine day, but i just got frustrated with my own thoughts about the future. i hate when i only see what my own eyes see. what's in front of me. there is so much more that's going on, and today i just couldn't see anything else, except, my life today. which isn't too bad, but, AH, sometimes i want to see what God see's, what His plans are, His perfect will. today i didn't even look for it. it's something to get excited about, but i just wasn't excited today. sometimes i hate my eyes. today was blah, that's a good word to use. although i did have a good study time. i went to Caribou-yes yes one of the enemies, but still ok.

i read this statement and it was just cool...i'm reading a book called worship-a way of life by Patrick Kavanangh. it's so good. anyways, good ole Pat was writing about worship in the New testament...he brought up "heavenly worship" bringing up Luke 2:13-14-when the angels met the shepherds in the field, the angels were worshiping...and then at the end of the NT, Rev. 4:1-11; 5:6-14; Rev. 7:9-12; 11:15-19; the list goes on...anyways then he goes..."i believe the lesson is this: If worship is a characteristic of heaven, then when we truly worship God on earth it is as though we were in heaven-a part of heaven has become real to us." i don't know, i've heard things like this before, i just thought it was put kind of cool. ok so that's my thoughts right now, kind of all over today and tonight.

2 weeks is too far away. ahhhhhh....soon enough, right?