move.

tonight, wednesday, was not like any other wednesday night, probably in my whole life. so far. tonight God spoke to me. tonight God spoke to me through someone else. nick, from rockford masters came up to me. asked to talk. and said that God wants me to hear something. "i believe God wants you to know, that i need to strive for excellence in music. if i do, God will take me to places i would have never imagined. i have to stop doing things on my own. if i need to change things, then i need to change things. " i sat in awe. no words. all i can say it was amazing. for a few reasons. 1- what nick said, matched up completely with what i have been struggling with. so i know, that i know without a doubt, it was God completely! and 2-God only knows that i have been struggling w/ things like "Word's from the Lord," or prophesies from people. I doubt things like that more than i believe and think that they are actually from God. so he used nick to show me that, if i am open to it...things like this can happen and be completely from God. i know it was from God, and he restored my faith in that area. so, what now? it's in my hands to run w/ this. he spoke and i need to do, only with his help though. he said that i might not know exactly what to do, or i may, but i will in time. one thing that keeps coming up in my mind, is voice lessons. matt's told me, i've thought about them and not i believe this would be an excellent way to strive to be excellent. another thing that has been on my heart is recording and making my own music. God made it clear that if i put my effort into this, he'll give me a future. i want the future he wants for me, cause it will be the best. AH, i feel at peace, but not at all, because there is so much i have to do. till next time.